“Roller Girl”

“I was a bit surprised to read the backstory of the Boogie Nights character in the form of a middle grade comic, but so it goes.

I’ve been to some roller derby. It’s fun. I think it’s a charming sport because it’s not like anyone skating does this for a living. They have to pretty much do it out of love. So they’re normal people, which is fun.

But the secret of roller derby is you have to make sure you’re going to the right kind of match. Oftentimes what a team will do is split into two teams and compete against each other. So you’re watching a scrimmage, and in a sport that involves knocking people down on a wooden track, the fire isn’t exactly there, you know?

Astrid, the titular Roller Girl, is kind of a Butthole and kind of comes around, but I’m not sure she really stops being a Butthole.

Why is my phone capitalizing Butthole?

Astrid is a really capital-b Butthole (there, I’ll just make up an excuse FOR MY PHONE) to her longtime friend, and it seems like she’s mostly a Butthole because her friend likes pink and boys and ballet and Astrid doesn’t like that stuff.

I sort of walked away feeling like the message here is that Astrid is cool and badass and her friend is a weenus who should learn how to git cul. Which feels like the way Astrid would see things from her perspective, but isn’t how an adult would read this.

It’s realistic that way. I think kids at that age are selfish. It’s just a developmental stage.

I just felt like I’m #TeamAstridsFriend at the end, even though Astrid’s interests are more appealing and she’s tough and refuses to give up on her goals. Her friend seems very nice and is a lot more mature about the dissolving friendship.

I was kind of a jerk to my elementary school best friend in middle school because I got a girlfriend and then 100% ignored my former best friend. Weirdly…me and this girlfriend went to the roller rink every week for our dates. Maybe there’s an evil in them floorboards…

The relationship lasted the entire school year, which is kind of amazing, but then she made out with Danny Holland on a school trip to D.C. and that was the end of the road. Cue Boyz II Men.

I cried a little, and my dad (who is truly insane) came into my bedroom to comfort me, and he said, “I know it hurts right now, but no matter how sad you get, don’t commit suicide, okay?”

Weirdly, this made me feel better because he left the room and I was like, Jesus Christ, I hadn’t even CONSIDERED suicide over this! What the fuck, dad?!

Later events including him being in a mental institution illuminated some of where this was all coming from.

So going into 7th grade, I was single. I guess. Is a 7th grader really “single?” Anyway, I tried to slide back into friendship with my old buddy, and he basically was like, “Nope, we’re not friends anymore.” Which he was right to do.

We grew up in the same town and still live there, and we run into each other from time to time, and he’s a nice guy. He’s not like carrying a grudge or anything.

My old girlfriend got in trouble with meth. I don’t know much about it. I’m sure she wasn’t using meth in middle school. Like 99% sure. I guess I would’ve been clueless if she was. But…I’m pretty sure.

I ended up hanging out with a couple other weird kids. One of them is my good friend today. And that’s the little where are they know, Stand By Me ending where no one gets stabbed in the throat.

Point being:

As an adult I’ve realized I was being a dick by abandoning my friend like that.

So maybe Roller Girl reminds me of the way I would’ve told the story at the time. Me and my friend drifted because I was interested in a girl and he seemingly wasn’t. But as an adult, I’d say I abandoned my friend because I was interested in a girl, and that was dumb and kinda heartless.

And that’s probably what didn’t fill me with love for Roller Girl. “